I have been dreading this up coming week for days, weeks even years. For some reason I've put so much thought into this milestone it has been driving me CRAZY! I know age is just a number but turning the big 3-0 has been an emotional roller coaster for me.
I look back when I turned 20 and what my hopes and dreams were, and where I saw myself at 30. Having a family was at the top of my list and I couldn't be happier. A wonderful husband and three smart and beautiful sons later....most of my twenties were dedicated to them without any regrets. In fact my 20's were self-less and my family always came first even though I wanted a career instead of just having a job, I've put in on hold so I can raise my babies. I look in the mirror often searching for grey hairs and wrinkles but am more concerned about the person I have become. Maybe that is why this milestone has been so tough for me as I constantly ask myself the same question...Am I happy with the person I have become? And I am my own worst critic! I know I officially became an adult when I turned 18 but it was a much longer process than that. I finally feel like an adult and it's not so bad....except occasionally when tough decision have to be made, I wish I was a kid again and not have to worry about stuff like that, but becoming an adult is realizing that making tough decisions is exactly what being an adult is about.
It took till now to figure out who I am and what I want from life and as long as I have that figured out I'm comfortable about starting another decade of my life. I think my 20's where harder that my 30's will be and I'm looking forward to new adventures and hopefully a little more stability in life. I hear 30's are the new 20's (even though only older people say that) I'll give believing it a try. Cheers!